i should be having fun but part of me is just dying more inside as the days go on. im trying to recover from my self injury addiction because i promised that i would stop, the problem is that the only reason i could do it at all was because i had someone their to support me, now that i dont have her its extremley hard to do this, also since i can drink its been rather blurry. im not sure how im going to make it through these last five days, but i guess i have no choice. i onlyhave a short time left of being online so i better get to the point of all of this. all i can say is that i cant wait to come back,im also getting sad because their will be no one who will be at the airport to see me like last time i came back. time for more shots i guess, and i wish it was saterday, honestly i hate it here, ive been binge drinkning to forget it all but its not working. i was told ;drink when you want to rember not when you want to forget ;
it only gets harder i guess. to any one who cares granted i wont see anyhting until i get back but thought that counts right.......